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01:23 am
[Link] | Well 5 years ago was a Tuesday. I remember that because it was my day off from classes and after crawling out of bed I turned on my internet to foxnews.com to see a plane had hit the World Trade Center. I asked Dave my dipshit of a roommate at the time if he knew anything about it. He said yes but somehow I doubted it then as I still do now. I looked for information for a few minutes when it came to me "something like this should be on TV." I was sleepy, what can I say. It was then the second tower was hit.
The world changed, but honestly it would have changed anyways; slower, less noticeable, but change is a simple fact of life. Democrats and Republicans have been fighting almost since it happened. Sure there were a few days where everyone loved each other and all was simpler but thats not who we are as a people we are people of ideas, to steal a phrase we are dreamers, shapers, and thinkers. And more than anything we all think we are right. We all carry truth within us even if only in small propotions. We are ignorant and stubborn in the rightness of our cause to the point where we fight simply for the sake of fighting. No, the world has changed, but we as a people are as we have always been.
Is there some vast force at our gate ready to sack the modern Rome? I don't think so but we do have enemies and I know one very simple thing, America will not last forever. Maybe it will last another 1000 years it will end someday. In the fires of war, the ice of global government, or the fog of history. I don't see our final days like so many people in the press and government, but what I see is a changing a world for better or for ill, I cannot see. It would seem to be for ill but greatness is forged in fires of bad times so maybe both or neither. Maybe we'll simply "Stay the course" whatever that means at this point.
911 is a event my generation will turn to define themselves, they say its our Kennedy assassination which defined the Baby Boomers. I can only hope that we aren't going back to a time of drugs and and free sex. It seems like the Baby Boomers can feel the vales of history upon them and wish to force us to remember their age and to remember our own. The events are differant. The death of one man known the world over and the deaths of 3000 Amercans whose names are only remembered by a few. But what really bothers me is it seems like a cop out. If you say that 911 is our generation's Kennedy assassination you are simply saying I have nothing to say on this matter other than it makes me sad. And I guess on a day like today that just doesn't cut it for me.
I don't know what else to say. We are going to stay in Iraq, once people die they stay died.
Current Music: When the Bullet in the bone
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11:45 am
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Sad news
Kris just called to tell me that James Van Allen Died this morning. Its funny Laura and I were just talking last night but how the man keeps going and going. Its a sad day
http://www.press-citizen.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20060809/NEWS01/60809004/1079
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04:04 am
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I year 2 days
A year and two days ago Kris and I were in the black hills. Its an odd thing I don't see myself without Kris, now this mind set has been around for some time but its an odd thing. when does your mind make that change? Maybe its philosopher in me but I wonder about these things. Kris and I have been watching "Dead like me" over the weekend very good show i suggest anyone that hasn't seen it check it out. it also currently airing on Sci-Fi. Granted DVD is always better.
The Wedding Damn that was fun, Kris and I, and all my friend. I knew on that day and the renup was the greatest collection of my closest friends I might every have. I thank you all for that great day. everyone was happy we kris looked great. I don't that was great day and it truth everyday since has been a great day. each day great in its own way. Kris and I fight but we love each other and we trust each other.
For the I year Kris and I went for the more Low key approach I think we both know there will be enough partying this next weekend and weekend after for that matter. We were just happy.
we had dinner overlooking the river watching some crazy guy swimming after something. we didn't talk a lot but it was company that made it worth while.
I'm so happy. I know so many people that don't have someone all I can say is wait for them but when you see the person for you go for it. If it doesn't work out that the way it is but you know you did the right thing. I still remember talking to Scott about Kris over three years ago. It was then in my mind that I knew I had to try. Maybe that answers my first question maybe not. For all thing things that I wish were different, for all thing that I might change if I could I happy to have Kris. And I don't know what my world would be like with out her.
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01:26 pm
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update
I updated my blog over at the longer beard
http://www.staab.blogspot.com/
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10:10 am
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update
First off I am in fact alive. I just haven't been updating this blog much of late, My muse and I have been working on other things. So, whats been going on, Last weekend Kris and I when down to Kirksville MO. to see her granmother. Really nice lady I like kris's granmother alot. It funny while I was at work I told one of coworks this and she said it was cute. I'm not sure how I feel about that but hey. Kirs's grandmother is great talor and said tha she would help kris alter her bridesmaid dress for Jeffs wedding. Which looks really good on kris now.
Jeff and I have started lifting weights. But jeff keeps riding me to do more like run and other bullshit. My thoughts are first. I'm trying to get in shape nagging me about all the other shit I should be doing is not getting on my good side. I know damn well what I should and shouldn't be doing and when I'm taking care of it in my own way. I started lifted because it something I enjoy. Why the hell do have to do thing you don't enjoy to get in shape. just because everyone else is running doesn't mean that running is the only way to go. My mom thinks I could Die any day of a heart attack, maybe maybe not. At this point we all only live so long and I should get hit by a bus to and would be just as dead. worring is just wasted time and we have so little of it has it is. Figure I'm 24 now. I have a good change that I could life to me 100, that mean I have a 1/4 I my life that is gone no chance of ever getting back. I respend and understand that I have alot of people caring about be but I always been self awhere, my mother telling me that I'm going to die over and over again is news. we all die.
Summer I here again. I'm enjoying walking around barefoot.
and politcs is a politics. Not sure what the point is most days. the only time that seem to care when it election time which is coming up. The only good Demcrat in Iowa goveror ran is booted. FALLON. Demcrats around the state desided to go with the guy(can't remember his name something with a C) that makes statements like "you have to elect me because the Nessle(R) will be a lacky for Bush(R)." well good to know that he has his eye on the state. now last i check Bush was not the govern of this state nor had he ever been. I'm not sure who I'm voting off, but i'm sick and tired of voting being a pick between the lesser of two evils. It a shame that many good people are turned off from poltics because they don't want to suject their familys to public light. Hell If I know how to fix this other than to start shoting lawers. I'm not sure this would fix anything but but hey I bet everyone in a amerca would like me. more than the next guy. If you look at the negative effecs of lawers have had on our socity, its remarkable. but they do it all for the little guys. well thats they say and to pad their check book.
just under two weeks left of warcraft. should have more time after that.
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02:00 am
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Writing again
So, I finally killed my world of warcraft account. it runs out in 22 days. It kinda nice to know that it will end soon. Will most likely pick it up again but no rush. on the flip side of thing I have started writing again. its Great and I'm having fun with it. Kris is even making it readable. All my stuff is post here http://aeterna.cg-project.com/forums/showThread.php?database=aeterna&tier=1&serial=1147121515 under the Name Marcus Vesper. I'd like to hear what people think I know if you don't have any back group in the world it might make since but I'll do what I can to fill in any hole people might have.
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03:49 pm
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Hard times
The best and worse of us have hard times. And it seems like Rush Limbaugh has had lot of them in the last few years. wear is was losing his hearing or his addiction to pain killers he seem to keep having those hard times. So when I heard that he had been arrested for drug crages I was honestly saddend. I know many on the left will cheer that he is a man who has weakness's and that is of course there right. But to me I feel bad for the man I have heard his voice for so long wheater it was pointing out some stupid congressman talking about how 2 million slave were eaten by sharks each year during the slave trabe that the sharks still swim the routes(no lie, I think the guy is still in congress too), or oh late pointing out how stupid it sound when howard Deams opens his mouth. Limbaugh has been a importan figure in my life I personally no longer consider him the best in the radio biss but he didn't create Right wing radio and for that he reseverse respect, and if anyone should attack him for he weakness I remind that we all only a bad desions way from runding our lifes forever.
Current Location: Iowa
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Hurt Johnny Cash
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10:49 pm
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New Asheri
Yea long time no post I have things to say but yea... anyways Asheri rising is being a bitch and I can't get it to update soo I'm posting this info here if you care I'm rather proud of what we did so many years ago, I am also happy to say new Asheri is being writen right now anways as follows in the post a wanted to post on my other blog but sady didn't happen
You hear Right Jake and Gassman have start it all again, we will seen how long this last but Since this is the storehouse for everything Asheri you can exspect updates.
The first which is a large group of links that makes in easier for find things some without further Ado here is the Asheri Revisted
Maps to come when I get home
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Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Rush limbaugh
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02:45 am
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15 more hours.
Coming off a 15 hours work day. Woo hoo. Not really sure why I worked that much it kind of just happened. It started wedesday night and I agree to working this morning eight to 11 no biggy. well then it started snowing again. and Snow plus bus equals crash. I counted three during my two hours. and that was only the ones that involed buses. During this shift I also became bus field medic to repair a bus with radom wires hanging down. Those I lose a round of service but hell almost all the buses were running between 10 minutes to an hour down on time. It doesn't help that when it snows everyone and there three dogs want to ride a free bus two blocks to stay out of the snow and in the end staying one time just doesn't matter as much as not hitting stuff.
So with about 20 mintues left in my shift I get word that my next drive will be late because she has been unable to keep her bus on time. So I keep driving. At 11:10 or so I get off my bus grab a quick lunch and deside that it about this time. If everything is going to hell it might be a good idea to show up to work sooner rather than later. Thus there was not another accident all day but hey I get paid and I got a fair bit of work done inculding but not limited to. Repairing a bumper that got ripped more of the way off, repairing someone piss poor wiring job, and getting a quick hour long lession on how not to fix a door. At about 4:10 one of the full timers says that if I'm going to be at work til 9:30(he he) I should take a little time to sit down while things arean't crazy. I said ok after about three attments to get some work done. After a 20 minute Break I start my clean up shift. All told other than the three route that appeared out of someones but. It as a fairly quite night filled with snow balls and alots and alots of waiting. with ended with Pizzia for my crew and thanks for a good semester of work. After than I rushed throgh my paper work because it was going on 10 pm and I told one of my clean up people that I would Drive her shift which ran til 12:40 am.
Its been a while since I driven a pentacrest night shift and All i can say those 5 hospital people that this shift exists for are very rude and generally not all that willing to talk. But it was cool to seen that the Unversity was bought a whole bunch of Brand new 7200 John Deer front wheel asist loaders to clean parking lots with. I want to know where these things are being stored. There has to be at least a half Dozen. these kind of trakters run around 100,000 a pop if not more, its good to know the university it spending money so well.
Anyways other than that night was quick when I got done at 12:40 am I finished some paper work that helped me strech the day to 1am.
All and all a good day.
Current Mood:  happy
Current Music: none
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06:10 am
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Howard Dean is a DIpshit
I'm Glad Howard Dean doesn't run the Country because of statements like This. "US Won't Win in Iraq"
Honestly what is the point of this other than undermind PRESIDENT Bush. You will notice the caps its because Bush is President and Dean is not Thank GOD OR GODS I don't know care how many it took to get him to give that speach after booming in Iowa. Hell Demacrats are so busy fighting about what we did or didn't know 3 years ago they can't see the coutry where people are fighting to have there own goverment and to contry there own Fate through Demacracy. Honestly Howard Dean and John Kerry and every other Demacrats that has been doing this Bull Shit. I mean Everyone talks about what great ideas Murtha has then no one votes for them. I know his was becaus Nacy has swearn every Demacrat in the house to a oath of loyalty. I mean that sounds like the kind of thing that you do when you have faith in the people under you. NOT. I mean honestly IF the demacrats are the party of people tha stand up from the little guy there sure doing a piss poor job of it. John Kerry calling Amercan Troops Terorist. Granted when your on face the nation the tow people that hear you are very moved.
I mean is Joe Letherman the only Demacrat that can see the Light.
After 2000 I didn't much care for Letherman but Honestly he seems like the only Demactrat who stands for anything. other than not bush I mean. Because I'm sure that will help them win in 08.
Current Mood:  cranky
Current Music: Carry on my Warward son by Kanas
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